Updated: Jan 18
Okay not really, but I got your attention;)
I decided to take this semester off (Fall 2020). I never thought that I would take a semester off school because I am so invested in it! I wanted to write about this because I feel like some people need to know they are not alone.
It was a big decision for me to take the semester off. I have no idea what I want to major in, I feel like I am wasting time/money taking classes, and college is a lot of hard work and I don't want to tire myself out and never get a degree! If this sounds like you or you're just curious, please join me!
I signed up for classes, bought all my books, and dove head first in.... About one week in I dropped all my classes. One main thing that made me take the semester off was because I could feel that I was not invested in my classes and my GPA is very important. I had no interest in classes and was lacking my favorite part of school, going to class! Online school is hard and balancing all aspects of life, is hard.
Recently I learned that it's okay to not know what I want to do in life, school, careers, etc... and if you struggle with this, just know that is it okay to not have everything figured out. If you are anything like me, you are too hard on yourself and put too much pressure on yourself to have it all together, all the time.
I worried about the stereotype that when you take a semester or a year off, you never go back... On one hand this is OKAY if this is what you want to do. If you take a semester or a year off and you find your calling, and it's not college that is okay. If you take it off and you find your calling, then make a plan and go for it, school or no school! Let's break stereotypes (I struggle with this as well). I worry about what other people think and have learned that the only opinion that matters is the one you have of yourself.
Instead of going to school this semester, instead I applied for internships and jobs. I set a goal for myself to apply for one job or internship everyday! I set email notifications from Indeed for opportunities in certain areas. I found mine through an email telling me about a new job posted under "Internships in Roseville, CA".
Some simple things that I kept in mind while manifesting my internship, that might help you if you need it:
Manifest the job you want everyday by setting intentional goals and being proactive about applying.
Once you find the type of job you want change your wardrobe and mindset to fit that position. I bought about 10 new outfits in order to dress how I wanted to live and present myself, as a marketing intern.
Apply for jobs/internships even if you aren't qualified.
Don't be afraid to try something new.
Always dress how you want to be perceived. Dress like the life you want to attract, you never know who or what you could attract through being presentable and professional.
By taking the semester off I have gotten real life experience in a field that I have been majoring in. I have learned so much already! I am applying for study abroad programs for Fall 2021 in Italy. Next semester I am going to just work on my general ed classes (not a full load for once also) until I find what makes my heart happy.
I hope that by sharing this at least one person knows that they are not alone! If anyone has any questions or wants to talk or needs advice please reach out!!